*Disclaimer this has nothing to do with the fact that I am queer woman. *
I am seeing this movement on the internet and it has brought me back to a place in my life where I refused to revisit until now.
They say blood is thick than water but what if the one who you consider to be family is the one that scared you in a way only years of suppression can “hide”.
I was a child ;I can’t remember what age I was when this started but I knew I was not fully a teenager yet. He would visit us and it would be like any normal day but it all went left once my parents left the room.
He would put his hands down my pants an fondle me and in my head at the time this was okay , he was my uncle nothing is wrong but I was a child I didn’t really understand what was going on.
This situation happened more than once, I have suppressed it so much I can’t remember the exact number. When I got older and really realized what he did I felt like I was in a bubble and I couldn’t say anything because it would destroy our family.
How can you think that is right to do that to not one but two of your nieces. All I want to know is why?
At 21 years old the thought of being in a room alone with you makes me anxious and uncomfortable, seeing you at family events makes me want to turn around and just go home because all I get is flash backs and the feeling of stupidity and fear that washes over me.
Now I see intamecy in a way that is just so fucked up. I feel like I need to give my body to a partner and not say anything but I have meet amazing women who have show me what it’s like to be cherished not only in a sexual but meant all way and I’m forever greatful.
Karma is a bitch and she will get you but I have moved on
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